Denny Dolan, lead guitarist for the little-known--but suprisingly good--rock band "The Barking Mothers," sighed in frustration as his dusty,
old Ford sped down the lonely stretch of desert highway.
Dolan had the top down, and his long, brown hair was whipping around
in the wind being created by the car's forward motion. He looked in the
rearview mirror: there was nothing that he hadn't already seen. The
road stretched back through the desolation until the curve of the earth
made it disappear from sight. A low line of ugly, brown hills were the
only things on the horizon. He used the mirror to look into his own blue
eyes.
Nice move, asshole, he said to his reflection. Went and got
yourself lost again, didn't you? His reflection didn't have an answer.
He didn't need one; he was lost, all right.
The desert stretched out in all directions, but Dolan was restricted to
the path the highway led him on. He already knew there were relatively
few roads that led to nowhere, but given the fact that his gas gauge was
leaning dangerously past "E," he didn't know what was going to run
out first: the road, the gas, or his luck. Probably, his luck.
The night before, he and his band had done a show at a roadhouse in
western Oklahoma. Tonight, they had a gig in Arizona. But whether he
was in Oklahoma, New Mexico, or Arizona, he couldn't even begin to
guess. Hell, after all of the tequila that he had drank the previous
evening, he may have even driven himself into Texas.
He reached down and grabbed a bottle of Corona that he had
nestled in his crotch. He took a swig of the warm, flat beer, looked at it
in distaste, then chugged it down. It tasted like mule piss, but he never
wasted good booze. As long as the alcohol didn't go flat, the beer still
served its purpose. He grabbed another beer from an iceless cooler
and stuck it between his legs.
A glance in the mirror revealed nothing
new. He hung his arm over the edge of the door and drove on.
Here and there, the desert was spotted with cactus and sagebrush, but
the never-ending tans and browns were driving him crazy. He slid on his
sunglasses and watched the scene turn a cool shade of blue. He
considered turning the radio on, but knew that he wouldn't be able to
hear it over the roaring wind. If he wanted to hear Janis screaming for
somebody to: "Take a little piece of her heart now, baby," he
would have to pull over and put the top up. Dolan shook his head. There
was no way that he was pulling over. When the engine died, it died. Until then, he was going to get as close to the end of this road as
possible.
The Ford rumbled along for another twenty miles. It started to cough
and shimmy; he slammed his hand down on the steering wheel. The car
chuffed, bucked, then fell silent. It rolled on for another hundred yards and slowed to a crawl. He pulled the wheel hard to the right--straining against the dead power steering. The passenger side tires hit the sandy edge
of the road and popped a few stones. The car stopped.
He looked up into the denim blue sky above Somewhere, USA and
whispered, "This can't be happening." He opened the door and got
out.
Gazing around at the desolate landscape, he was momentarily
startled by the appearance of a desert hare. The rabbit was on the
other side of the road inspecting the new piece of long-haired desert
scenery that was Dolan. The rabbit lost interest. Dolan brought the heel
of his cowboy boot down on the highway to regain its attention. It looked
at him stoically.
"Hey!" he yelled. "I don't suppose you know where we are, do you?"
The rabbit ignored his question.
"Yeah, I didn't think so." He banged
his fist on the door and went about his business. The rabbit hopped
away.
Dolan looked at the sun. It was still early, but the temperature was rising
quickly. He took off his leather jacket and threw it in the trunk. The jacket
was too hot to wear, and if he were going to carry anything, it was going
to be his custom-made electric guitar and his last two bottles of
Corona.
He slammed the trunk shut and looked at his bare, white arms. His arms and shoulders were going to get badly burned. Still,
he hadn't seen another car on this godforsaken road, so waiting to
hitch a ride wasn't much of an option.
He stuck the last two beers into the back pockets of his jeans and
grabbed his guitar case off of the back seat. Taking a sip of the beer in
his hand, he turned and started walking.
It looked as though it were going to be a long, long day.
***
At the end of two hours, Dolan had just about had it. The sun was
directly above him; his shadow was a puddle around his dusty cowboy
boots. He finished his second-to-last beer, tossed the bottle in the
sand, and looked down the long stretch of highway. There appeared to
be a building about a mile up. It was impossible to tell what it was, but if
it could get the sun off of his head, then it was already his favorite place
in the world.
He continued walking. He only hoped that it wasn't a
mirage. When he was only a few hundred feet away, the building's purpose
became apparent. It was a rundown gas station with a sign out front that
read: "Giovanni's Last Stand." The place looked abandoned, but the
antique pumps still had gas showing in their upper bubbles.
As he crossed the dirt parking lot, the age of the place became evident.
Faded signs advertised cigarettes that he had never heard
of, and the red and white soda cooler on the rickety porch had a 5¢
sign painted above its coin slot.
"Jesus," he whispered. "didn't I see
this place in a 'Movie of the Week' once?" He pulled his sunglasses off and hung them from the neckline of his
shirt. He listened intently.
For the first time in hours he heard something
other than the sounds of the desert. It was music. He could tell it was
classical, but the strains were so muted that it could have been coming
from another dimension instead of from inside the store. Three rotting
stairs led up to the front porch. He stepped onto the first one.
Something changed.
He jumped back. Everything returned to normal.
He shook his head and looked around. The feeling that he had
experienced was . . . what? He wasn't sure. He had gotten dizzy, as
though the barometric pressure had dropped dramatically. When he
turned around, he expected to see a long, black funnel twisting its way
down from the sky. He knew that everything went haywire when a
tornado approached. That didn't seem to be the case here, though, and he let out
a shaky laugh.
"Man!" he exclaimed. "It's got to be the booze." He
put his foot back on the step.
The feeling returned, but it wasn't as
disturbing. He stepped across the porch. When he opened the door, three things
happened: he heard a small bell ring, the music got louder, and his
nose was assaulted by a cinnamony smell. All in all, a pleasant first
impression. He stepped inside and let his eyes adjust to the dim
lighting. The sunlight that managed to squeeze its way through the
cracks in the filthy front windows did little to illuminate the place.
"Good morning, Denny," someone said from somewhere on his right.
The music stopped playing. Dolan turned towards the voice. Standing
at the counter was an ancient-looking man.
Dolan rubbed his eyes. "Huh?"
"I said, good morning, Denny." The man flashed a toothless grin, but it
was as if he were smiling at the wall behind Dolan. It didn't take a
genius to figure out why: the old man's eyes were as white as
hard-boiled eggs.
Stepping closer, Dolan could see the man's face
was a roadmap of wrinkles. His hair stuck out from the sides of his
head: it was as white and wild as the beard and mustache that covered
the majority of his face.
"Yeah, right back at you. You don't know how good it is to see another
human being." For no reason that Dolan could discern, the man began
to cackle wildly. Dolan almost turned and ran.
"You're right, Denny, You're right!" He pointed at his sightless eyes. "I
don't know how good it is to see another human being. That, or
anything else."
"Oh! Yeah . . . I . . ." Dolan stammered in embarrassment. "I didn't
mean to---" Dolan's mouth snapped shut. Something peculiar had just
registered on him.
"What's the matter, boy?" the old man probed. "Cat got your
tongue?"
"Uh, no," Dolan said carefully, "but how do you know my name? I've never met you
before."
"No, I don't suppose you have. But there are no secrets here, and after
all," the man said cryptically, "I have been waiting for you."
Dolan felt his insides go watery. "Waiting? For me?"
"Oh, yes, Denny. And I've been waiting for a long, long time."
Dolan felt as though his skull were full of helium. He had no idea what
this kook was talking about, but he was getting a bad case of the
heebie-jeebies. He looked around the interior of the store: there was
nothing but empty shelves. "Where the hell am I?"
"That's right, Denny." The old man grinned. "And to think, you got it
right on your very first try."
Dolan was badly confused. "I don't get the joke. Just tell me where I
am."
The man shook his shaggy head and laughed. "In Hell, Denny, in Hell.
That's where you are."
"Sheeeee-it!" Dolan exclaimed. "Look, I don't know what game
you're playing, but count me out." He stepped quickly to the door, pulled
it open, and was blasted in the face with a searing hot wind. For one
fleeting second, he thought that his hair was on fire. He stepped back
and looked outside. The desert was just the desert; nothing had
changed. Except, of course, for the temperature. Dolan had never felt
heat like this before. It had to be nearly 200 degrees. He closed the
door.
"Change your mind, boy?"
"Uh, yeah, but . . ."
"No buts about it, Denny, You're burning in Hell, all right. Or, you will be
soon if you don't do something about it."
Dolan was terrified. "I don't understand What's happening." He
looked down and noticed that his guitar case was gone. He was still
holding the handle, but everything else had disappeared. "I mean, I was
on that road out there . . ."
"That road doesn't go anywhere, and if you get back on it without my
permission, it will just lead you back here again. Only then it'll be too
late."
"Too late for what?!" Dolan yelled.
"Why, too late to save your soul, Denny. There's still a chance, you
know."
"But . . . what?" Dolan's thoughts were spinning. The more this old
man told him, the crazier the story got. "What are you saying? Either
I'm dead, or I'm not. I'm either in Hell, or I'm not. Which is it?"
The man scratched beneath his beard. "I guess you could say It's a
little of both. You're not really dead. Not yet, anyway."
That got Dolan's attention. "What do you mean? That I can still get out
of here?"
"Well, your soul can."
Dolan froze. "My soul?"
"Yes. You see, this really isn't you here. It's just the manifestation of
your life force. Your body is in a motel room in western Oklahoma
somewhere. It's lying on the floor with severe alcohol poisoning, and if
something's not done soon, then the body will die and you'll be
trapped here forever. Here where you belong, I might add."
"And you can help?" Dolan was wary. "Who are you? Satan?"
"No, just a man who sold his soul to him."
"Yuh," Dolan whispered. "That was stupid, dude. What the hell could
be worth your soul?"
"Only the music. The same thing that led you down this road of
destruction. I just did it three hundred years ago."
"Who are you?"
"Didn't you see that sign out front?" Dolan had, but he'd be damned if
he could remember what had been written on it. "Giovanni's?" the
man prompted.
"Yeah, That's right! Giovanni's!" Dolan shrugged. "Giovanni who?"
"Rinaldi."
"Is that supposed to ring a bell?"
"No," the man said sadly, "I suppose not. You may have heard of the
man I used to work for, though."
"Maybe. Who was he?"
"Antonio Stradivari."
"Holy shit!" Dolan yelled. "Antonio Stradivari? Of the Stradivarius
violins?"
"Yes. And I see that his notoriety hasn't diminished with time."
Now Dolan was really confused. "But . . . what does this have to do with
me? Why am I here?"
"You have a special talent, Denny. A special kind of soul. I could feel it
coming from miles away."
"This is crazy, man, really crazy!" Dolan started pacing."You worked for Antonio Stradivari? I'll be damned!"
"No, boy, you won't be damned. You already are."
Dolan had forgotten about his present predicament. His attention
turned back to the fact that his body was in some run-down motel in
West Buttfuck, Oklahoma. He rushed to the counter. "Hey, Giovanni,"
he said breathlessly, "what do I have to do? You know, to get back into
my body?"
The man smiled serenely. "You have to do what I didn't."
"Well?" Dolan urged. "What didn't you do?"
"I didn't use my passion in a positive way. I know it's not a very good
explanation, but it's difficult to explain."
"Try."
The man mused for a moment. "I had no talent for making instruments,
but it was the only thing I cared about. I was savagely jealous of
Stradivari's abilities, and I would have done anything to surpass
them."
"Yeah? So?"
"So, one day while drunk, I offered my soul in exchange for the ability to
make a special instrument. Something that would put my boss to
shame. When I said it, I was only fooling around, but Satan heard me
and came to me with a deal."
Dolan looked at the man's blind, white eyes. "What was it?"
"Well, the deal was that since I was so blinded by my jealousy of
Stradavari, that not only would I have to relinquish my soul, but also my
sight. In return, I would be given the ability to make one special
instrument: one that would forever overshadow anything of
Stradivari's."
Dolan nodded. "And you went for it."
"Yes. I agreed to the terms and created an instrument for a certain kind
of person. Or, I should say, that I made it for certain type of soul. A soul
that could do it justice."
"I still don't get this. Didn't you say you were waiting for me?"
"Yes, but I didn't mean you specifically. What I meant to say was that I
was waiting for a soul that shined like yours to come down this road.
And I think you may be the one, Denny."
"Me?" Dolan was lost.
"You."
"What am I supposed to do?"
Rinaldi chuckled and held up a gnarled finger. "I have something for you. Something very special." The old man
shuffled into the back of the store and
started moving things around. "Aha!"
Rinaldi exclaimed. "Here it is! I knew it was back here somewhere."
He returned holding an over-sized guitar case: it looked to be made of
dark-brown leather and was covered in a layer of dust. He placed it on
the counter. "There you are, Denny. An instrument worthy of a soul."
Dolan ran his hands over the weathered hide. "What is it?"
"It's a guitar. And a very special one. I made it myself."
"You mean, this is it? The instrument that will outshine all of
Stradivari's?"
"This is it." The old man undid the little brass locks. When he opened
the case, what Dolan saw made his heart ache with desire. It was a
magnificent instrument of unearthly design. Made of polished wood from some
dark-grained tree, it was strung with twelve strings of the purest silver. The inlaid frets were of silver also.
"It's . . . beautiful," Dolan whispered.
"Thank you," Rinaldi said proudly. "Remember, it is one of a kind."
"But it looks so old. I'm afraid I might break it."
Rinaldi stroked the instrument lovingly. "Oh, I don't think you have to
worry about that. You see, this guitar will play forever. It's magic."
"Magic," Dolan echoed.
"Yes," Rinaldi said. "And I'm giving it to you, Denny."
Dolan was having trouble believing all this. After all, here he was talking
about lost souls, dying bodies, and magic guitars; it was too much for
his overloaded mind to handle.
"Go ahead, Denny. Pick it up."
"Are you sure?"
"Come on, Denny, stop being a jackass and pick up the guitar. I
wasn't kidding when I said your time was running out."
Dolan placed his hands on the instrument: a surge of power, or
electricity, or . . . something went shooting up his arms to his shoulders.
The jolt nearly knocked him over. "Wow!"
"'Wow,' is right, Denny, but hurry up. I have to be sure you're the one
before I let you leave."
"What do you want me to do with it?"
"Play it, boy! Play it! What else?"
Dolan lifted the instrument from the case. A long, thin strap of leather
dangled from the guitar: he slipped it over his head. The guitar hung
loosely against his body. It was giving off a vibrating energy that lit his
soul from within. He placed his fingers on its neck. His spirit soared. He
positioned his fingers to play a "G" chord.
"Go ahead, Denny. Make me see the music."
Dolan brought his fingers to the strings, took whatever it was that
passed for a deep breath in Hell, and strummed.
A galaxy of
symphonies crescendoed around him; his mind's eye was opened as
never before. He changed chords and strummed again. Sparkling
cities full of crystal spires appeared: they rose to the clouds. His fingers moved and a brace of rainbows exploded around his head.
Their shimmering stripes, dissolving quickly, fell to the earth in a shower
of prismatic raindrops. Fingers dancing from fret to fret, he played an
old Spanish melody. A butterfly's wings began to melt, then molded
themselves into the eyes of a beautiful, laughing child. He strummed
again and the child sang a note so sweet and pure that it grew silver
wings. He watched the note float up to the gates of Heaven. He was
about to go into a bluesy guitar riff when he heard the old man
screaming from somewhere far away.
"Stop, Denny! Stop!"
Dolan couldn't see anything but the music. He felt his hand being
pulled from the guitar; the world he was creating instantly disappeared. He found himself looking at the old man's face.
"Please, stop," Rinaldi whispered, tears flowing into his wild, white
beard.
"Why?"
"Because, it was just too beautiful to bear. I cannot stand to see that
anymore."
"What? You mean, you could see all that, too? I can't even believe that
I was seeing it!"
"I saw it, Denny, believe me. And it's more than my lost soul can take.
Living in this wasteland has made me forget how beautiful the music is. Here, it's nothing more than torture."
"But---"
"Stop it, Denny, just stop! Take the guitar
and go. Get out of here. Go and bring the music to the world. Just . . .
get it away from me."
"Go?" Dolan looked around. "Go where?"
"It doesn't matter. Back the way you came is fine. But hurry!"
"But, I want to thank---"
"Run, Denny, run!"
Dolan backed towards the door and opened it: he could hear a million
screaming voices.
"Run, Denny! Go!" Rinaldi was on his knees crying. "Those voices you
hear are coming for you!"
"Wh--what?!" He looked out into the desert. It sounded as though every
legion of Hell were approaching.
"They saw the music, too, Denny, and they want to keep your soul here. They want to kill the beauty of the music and make you live in pain and
ugliness forever." Dolan looked down the road and saw a twisting
black cloud approaching: it was thousands of feet high. "Go! Go! Go!"
Dolan started running with the guitar
clutched to his chest. When his boot heels hit blacktop, he started
clomping down the highway as fast as possible. Squinting his eyes, he
saw a strange gray opening--a doorway possibly--in the middle of the
road about a hundred yards up. He looked over his shoulder and
screamed.
A huge, black cloud full of tortured faces was bearing down
upon him. They were shifting, stretching, screaming horridly. He heard his name being shouted by a million mouths; the
stink of death and corruption emanated from every one of them.
The foul mass reached toward him with its evil
presence.
Dolan's eyes were burning, his vision blurred by the heat of Hell, but with his
objective in sight, he never stopped running. The door was forty yards
away. Thirty. Twenty. Ten.
He felt the presence caress the back of his
neck. Screaming, twisting, towering to the sky, the evil mass raised a
huge hand to crush him. The mass swooped
down, Dolan dove for the door and . . .
. . . went crashing back into his body.
He
opened his eyes. He was laying face down on a motel room floor, a
puddle of vomit inches from his lips. He looked back to see if
the door was still open. Both it and the cloud were gone.
The
guitar lay on the floor next to the bed. He had almost forgotten about it. In
fact, he wouldn't have been surprised to find that the entire episode
was some alcohol-induced nightmare.
He picked up the instrument. Its power had crossed over with him; he could feel it surging through his body. He slipped the strap
around his neck. His throat was
parched. He swallowed hard. There was a loud, dry click.
"This can't
be happening," he whispered, but he knew that it was. Dream or no
dream, there were no guitars like this one. He closed his eyes and
strummed a chord. He
watched a glowing note float away like a feather on a warm, summer
breeze. He put his hand on the strings to stop their vibrations. Once
again, he was looking at the motel room.
It had been real, all right.
Every last bit of it.
He looked at a half-empty bottle of tequila on the nightstand and picked
it up. In the silence of the room, he could hear the golden liquor sloshing
around. He sniffed it, gagged, then threw the bottle at the wall. It
shattered and sent tequila spraying everywhere.
That was perfect. He
wouldn't be needing that stuff anymore. All it did was blind him to the
things that mattered.
Like the music.
Like his life.
Like his very soul.
It
was something that he couldn't allow to happen again. He had been
given a second chance. He had been allowed to see the music. It was a
precious gift. He wanted to share it.
Slinging the guitar behind himself, he headed for the door. He had a
show to do that night. Soon, the world was going to see the music.
x x x
When Mr. Salter first sent me this story, I rejected it with comments and suggestions. I thought it had potential, but its original form was far too rough for publication. I never expected him to try again, but I reckoned without his perseverance. This revision--though still rough in places--speaks well of its potential and Mr. Salter's efforts. Hope you agree, AR readers.
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